Confession N.6

Fact: One month and thirteen days down, two months and three days to go. At least camp starts soon.

I was finally starting to feel better about Josh and I's long distance relationship; everything has been going smoothly, no fights- things had been just about as good as they can be when you're apart from the one person in the world you care the most about. However, a little less than a week ago I saw something that not only annoyed me, but also made me miss Josh more than I have all summer.

8 days ago, I know because of the countdown she has on her Facebook, my cousin's boyfriend left for 10 days; he's about three hours away. Since he left she has counted down on her status how many days until he returns, wrote on his wall almost everyday telling him how much she misses him, and drove up to see him at the "half-way" mark. I seriously do not think these two have gone longer than a week without seeing each other since they started dating over a year and a half ago. This next school year, they will have to go through a long distance relationship where she won't be able to drive and see him whenever she wants to, and will only be able to see him on breaks. I don't think I'll be able to handle her statuses then, if she's this bad now.

Also, whenever I read her stupid little countdown all I can think about is the fact that I won't get to see Josh all summer. Granted I have been through longer long distance relationships, but it's so different when it's with someone that you're used to spending almost every minute of everyday together. Then again, I feel bad for complaining. I know there are women out there who go for a year or even longer barely being able to talk to their husbands or boyfriends, and not getting to see them at all because they are either at war or training to serve our country.

I guess in the long run we all just need to be grateful for what we have, because no matter how bad our lives might be, I can guarantee there is someone out there who has it worse.

I'm grateful that Josh and I only ever have to go through these three and a half months apart in order to never have to be apart again, unless of course we choose to be. I'm grateful that I have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me, and respects me for who I am. I am grateful that I have a man who accepts my flaws, and doesn't get angry with me when I have my crazy mood swings. I could be a lot worse off.

I love you barrels. :)