Empty Promises

Fact: This summer helped me to finally realize two things- first, home truly is where the heart is, and second, South Carolina is home for me.

So, as any of you who follow my blog, or know me know that I worked at Lourdes Camp this summer. Yes, I know that camp season is not over and that I should technically still be working at Lourdes, but I quit.

I usually don't classify myself as a quitter, but some times somethings become too unbearable. I was promised by numerous people that working at Lourdes would make this summer the best summer of my life- they were dead wrong.

Imagine yourself back in high school- remember the popular clique? The "Plastics"? The girls who were judgmental, vicious, and malicious against girls who were different from them? Well, imagine that instead of this clique only consisting of maybe fifty girls in a high school of thousands of teenage kids, that it's a clique that consists of two thirds of a staff of forty adults. That is the work environment I have been in for the past month. This past week was too much to bear. I had to deal with being yelled at by a co-worker who was three years younger than myself, being ignored by my co-counselors, having to teach an activity by myself that I had no idea how to teach, and on top of all of that, when I quit I was simply told by my boss that the staff was too big anyways.

I will admit that I did make friends at Lourdes, however, even with the support of a few friends, I was unable to take the abuse given to me by the older staff. I was unhappy, and last week I realized that there was no reason for me to stay at a job I was miserable at, especially when there was a much better option that will be most beneficial in the long run. So, last Tuesday I told my boss I would be leaving Lourdes at the end of the week, and in two weeks I will be back in South Carolina to find a job down there. First of all, it is more important for me to have a job in South Carolina since I do spend the majority of my time down there, my rent starts on the first of August, so I have a place to live, and then I can spend time with Josh and my all my friends that I haven't had a chance to see all summer before classes start again. I am exponentially happier with this decision, plus I get a little time off to spend some time here in New York to get things ready for when I leave, and spend some time with my parents before I leave for school again.

So, goodbye Lourdes, and hello South Carolina.