...What if?

Fact: Dating Josh was one of the best decisions I've ever made.

Today I had a scary thought- what if I had stayed with David?

Well, I guess the obvious point would be that I wouldn't be with Josh now, but today I realized that it would be way more than just that. Before David and I broke up, we had a plan; we would get engaged over Christmas break of 2009, get married the summer of 2010, and then I would transfer to Western Michigan in the fall of 2010 so we could live and go to school together. Therefore, if we had stayed together I would now be married, and I wouldn't be returning to Winthrop this fall. It was a really shocking thought, and it got me thinking about how different my life would be now.

If I had stayed with David I also would have never gotten back together with Stephen, and while I would like to believe that that would be a good thing, I know that it was something that needed to happen. If I hadn't gotten back together I wouldn't have been able to get over him finally.

I would go into "what if" I had stayed with Stephen- but we all know how that would've gone. I would be miserable, unhappy, we would have rushed into getting married way too early, and it would've ended in a divorce. It goes without saying- I'm glad he's no longer in my life.

No matter what happens, there will always be "what if"s in life, but as of now, I'm satisfied leaving all my "what if"s unsolved. I'm happier than I have ever been in my entire life, and the only "what if" I want to think about is "what if this never ends?" :) ♥